I noticed something wasn’t right in around 2009 just before I moved towns. I was in Year 8 and I was experiencing violent and aggressive thoughts and urges towards my peers. I mentioned this deep-burning desire for violence to a teaching assistant at school whom I confided in in confidence. I was reported to my…
As a child, I often remember having to make myself ‘fit in’. I learned to mask my lack of certain emotions early on. I remember not being sad, and not having childhood crushes or understanding a ‘point’ in these emotions- although if you had them, more people liked you. Now, the day to day symptoms…
I think I first knew I had an issue with Conduct Disorder (as much as I could know anything, honestly) in the later years of elementary school. I knew that other kids seemed to get bothered by things a lot more than I did, and I was way less afraid to get into physical and…
I am sharing my story of living with Conduct Disorder because I want to actually educate people, especially teachers, on how to treat a Conduct Disorder kid, because our treatment by authority figures in early childhood can really shape the rest of our lives. From memory, the symptoms I experienced or others detected during early…
I am diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder and Antisocial Personality Disorder. I experience all the symptoms; impulsivity, fear of abandonment, paranoia, splitting, lack of guilt and remorse, and so on. When I began treatment I was having hallucinations as well – not anymore though. I manage them a lot better with professional help. I still…
I have ASPD and my main symptoms are inability to control anger, aggression and irritability, impulsivity, apathy towards others (including myself) and the inability to feel fear. I am also unable to consider consequences o my actions. All those mixed together have caused me a lot of trouble in my childhood and teen years (I’m…
Symptoms of Conduct and Intermittent Explosive disorders, for me, started as early as I can remember, with my first younger sibling being born when I was two. I was very angry at him for simply existing. I blamed him for making my parents unhappy. I had violent tantrums (hitting/biting, I think I headbutting a doctor…
My symptoms started around 15. I got diagnosed with Conduct Disorder when trying to get diagnosed with ADHD, which kind of developed to ASPD, I’m assuming due to the lack of treatment or awareness of it as a teenager. My main symptoms are apathy, anhedonia, disregarding social norms and laws, inner grandiosity and anger…
I have a diagnosis of ASPD and have most of the symptoms needed to fulfil the diagnostic criteria. If you Google ASPD, you’ll find a list of these on the NHS website that sum up some of my behaviours pretty much to a tee; repeatedly breaking the law, repeatedly being deceitful, being impulsive or incapable…
I have never formally been diagnosed with Antisocial Personality Disorder (ASPD), but I believe I have it. Or at least, ASPD traits: enough to firmly place me in the sociopath bracket. I don’t believe myself to be a psychopath, however- I do have a sense of right and wrong and a conscience, but I have…