I first began to notice symptoms of what I now know to be bipolar disorder at the age of around 13. The main one was extremes of mood- my moods seemed to be much more extreme than what the people around me experienced, and that went for both ends of the spectrum. I could go…
“Never forget what happened to you. Never forget.” “But I have to, at least for a while.” Sometime later Baby came up with a solution for her counterpart- 1991, the six-year-old who held the memories. “You can break yourself, cut yourself into two and hid yourself while I use your body to operate.” “I can…
When my Mother died when I was eight, I was shuffled into a psychologist’s office in short order- adopted brown kid in a white area, dead mother– my father was no fool, he knew that I would need support. The problem was, of course, the age in which I grew up. I was born in…
I have a myriad of conditions- all diagnosed in adulthood- however I have been experiencing symptoms of most of these things since early childhood, with some popping up in my teen years. I have Bipolar Disorder (started as a teen/young adult), OCD (started in early childhood), ADHD (born with), autism (born with), Complex PTSD (I’ve…
I first thought, “Damn, I seem to struggle with stuff no one else struggles with,” at the age of around nine to twelve, which was when my family problems, losses and the start of puberty kind of collided. These circumstances have culminated in diagnoses as an adult of Histrionic Personality Disorder (HPD), Narcissistic Personality Disorder…
I have suffered with BPD since I was a teenager (around 14/15 years old) but wasn’t officially diagnosed till I was 19. I have what is classified as ‘quiet’ BPD, which basically means I act out a lot of my symptoms internally rather than externally. For example, others may punch a wall or shout and…
Hello! My name is Max, I am an alter in our system. We went undiagnosed with autism for 20 years, and have been diagnosed with autism for almost a year now. Currently we are getting a proper diagnosis of DID. We acknowledge that getting an official diagnosis is a privilege. We think of diagnoses as…
I am officially diagnosed with depression, anxiety and dermatillomania, although I also suffer (undiagnosed) from paranoia, mild PTSD and experience body focused repetitive behaviours (BFRBs). My depression tends to happen in ‘episodes’, where I’ll go from being functioning to very ‘low functioning’ – not eating much, struggling to get out of bed, forgetting to wash,…
Hello, I am Alec. Well, actually I’m not Alec, Alec is the person everyone sees. I’m Zif and I am part of a DID system. DID, better known as Dissociative Identity Disorder, is a form of PTSD (Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder) in which your personality isn’t able to form in childhood because of severe traumatic events….
My symptoms have existed for as long as I can remember, and I spent most of my teens under a CAMHS team. Despite this, I was well into my twenties, my teaching career and my umpteenth crisis before an eagle-eyed psychiatrist recognised I have Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD). I also…