It all started in my teenage years. I always knew I was somehow ‘weird’. After I had my child in 2010 I really knew that something was off, since I didn’t feel all the things that a parent should feel. I already knew I had depression but I couldn’t afford to go to therapy until…
My biggest symptoms of Schizoid Personality DIsorder are depersonalisation and derealisation, apathy, anhedonia, passive chronic suicidality and flat affect/lack of emotions. Because of them I am just… indifferent. I don’t have any dreams, any goals, I don’t see a point. Nothing brings me joy or satisfaction. I don’t want to meet with people, actually not…
The main symptom of my SZPD is not wanting to take part in any social activity. At first I thought I was just being lazy and shy- I wasn’t, I just didn’t want to get involved with other people. I just wanted to be alone. I used to think being complimented was top tier. I…
Schizoids are known for having quite a monotone voice and an expressionless face. Whilst I was taught by my parents how to mask in social situations, going to this state of flatness is inevitable. It affects relationships, especially those moments when I first talk to someone and they find me odd, frown and go away….
I believe I’ve had issues stemming from social anhedonia/general relationship issues for pretty much my whole life. Throughout elementary school, I had a problem with being able to maintain a friendship for longer than a year, and looking back it was entirely my fault. Basically I just kind of got bored. The only long term…