I am diagnosed with GAD and ADHD. It was probably at its worst when I started university. I struggled with feelings of depression as well as flashbacks. I used to become so anxious I would have panic attacks, I would undergo spells of derealisation/depersonalization and I’d feel like I couldn’t breathe- like I was struck…
I started having symptoms of depression around 2008/09. Every little thing would get on top of me, like having to make a phone call for the child tax credit I was claiming at the time. It should have been simple, but I just ended up in tears and putting the phone down. I felt more…
I have suffered with BPD since I was a teenager (around 14/15 years old) but wasn’t officially diagnosed till I was 19. I have what is classified as ‘quiet’ BPD, which basically means I act out a lot of my symptoms internally rather than externally. For example, others may punch a wall or shout and…
I had a long-standing diagnosis of Bipolar Disorder, alongside depression and anxiety, which has recently been re-diagnosed as CPTSD (which makes so much more sense to me). I also have anorexia. Masking is something I spend a huge amount of time and energy doing. I’ve struggled with massive fluctuations in mood since my teens –…
The day I was officially sent to CAMHS after my family trying to help me themselves was the day my family accidentally caught a glimpse of rather a lot of cuts of different ages on my forearm. My little sister asked what it was, and my mum questioned me and cried. I apologised and then…
When I was ten years old, a spider fell on my head. A big one, brown with a tiny body and ridiculously long legs. I didn’t notice it until I went to the bathroom and caught sight of myself in the mirror. That’s when I screamed. After the incident, I kept on checking for spiders….
I am officially diagnosed with depression, anxiety and dermatillomania, although I also suffer (undiagnosed) from paranoia, mild PTSD and experience body focused repetitive behaviours (BFRBs). My depression tends to happen in ‘episodes’, where I’ll go from being functioning to very ‘low functioning’ – not eating much, struggling to get out of bed, forgetting to wash,…
Today was the fifth time I have left the house since 2017. That’s five times in five years. If you think that’s extreme, that’s because it is. I suffer from agoraphobia, social anxiety, depression, body dysmorphia and suspected PTSD from medical trauma, and leaving the house is extremely difficult and stressful for me. It’s actually…
I suffer badly with paranoia. I used to believe my parents weren’t real or that they weren’t my parents at all. I used to think that they would kidnap me or r**e me, which was obviously not the case but I still have paranoid thoughts like that. It’s really scary and makes me feel really…
I’ve been a terribly shy girl for as long as I can remember. When I was a teenager, my ‘best friend’ left me. I felt that was the point that sunk my mental health. I was hypervigilant the whole time, very anxious and tense. I felt everyone was constantly looking and laughing at me. It…