My biggest symptoms of Schizoid Personality DIsorder are depersonalisation and derealisation, apathy, anhedonia, passive chronic suicidality and flat affect/lack of emotions. Because of them I am just… indifferent. I don’t have any dreams, any goals, I don’t see a point. Nothing brings me joy or satisfaction. I don’t want to meet with people, actually not…
When you go to university, the thing that nobody prepares you for is what happens when you leave. Or more precisely, what happens when you leave and you can’t get a job. All through sixth form and my time studying at university, I’d been told that having a degree would make me stand out in…
I’ve always gotten into trouble and had ups and downs since I was a kid; self harm since middle school, Oppositional Defiant Disorder and bouts of rage. But after my mom died when I was 29 (five years ago), I thought I might have developed autistic traits- extreme sensory overload, agitation, obsessions and constant listing…
I’ve felt like something wasn’t right my entire life, but my moods started to really form their ups and downs around my teenage years. I’d have periods where I’d feel like I was on top of the world, as if driven by a motor and being really productive and creative. But these were always followed…
I got my diagnosis of Bipolar Disorder in my 40s. However I have had Bipolar Type 2 since my late teens. Back then it was called manic depressive disorder. I noticed that I had symptoms when I was 17. But back then there was only really awareness of Bipolar 1. I was either depressed or…
I have Borderline Personality Disorder with depression and anxiety. My symptoms include fear of abandonment, lack of sense of self, a disturbed pattern of thinking, impulsive behaviour and chronic feelings of emptiness. In total there are nine symptoms of BPD and I’m lucky to no longer have turbulent relationships, explosive anger or self destructive tendencies….
I started having symptoms of depression around 2008/09. Every little thing would get on top of me, like having to make a phone call for the child tax credit I was claiming at the time. It should have been simple, but I just ended up in tears and putting the phone down. I felt more…
I’ve been dealing with depression, self-harm and suicidal ideation since I was 11 years old, maybe earlier. Those gradually got worse throughout the years. The psychosis started sometime in high school, but I kept it secret because of the stigma. I had my first manic episode that started around November 2016, and in February 2017…
I had a long-standing diagnosis of Bipolar Disorder, alongside depression and anxiety, which has recently been re-diagnosed as CPTSD (which makes so much more sense to me). I also have anorexia. Masking is something I spend a huge amount of time and energy doing. I’ve struggled with massive fluctuations in mood since my teens –…
I am officially diagnosed with depression, anxiety and dermatillomania, although I also suffer (undiagnosed) from paranoia, mild PTSD and experience body focused repetitive behaviours (BFRBs). My depression tends to happen in ‘episodes’, where I’ll go from being functioning to very ‘low functioning’ – not eating much, struggling to get out of bed, forgetting to wash,…